When i am reli going through a bad time, i update Facebook alot and
see wad people reply...
And when they dont, i turn to my blogger...
My one and only true friend who keeps his opinions to himself...
These past few days have been shitty and fun at the same time...
I have been a dick to many people and somehow i am enjoying it...
Common tests came and went...
I fucking hated it... But they were doable...
With help from friends, i can pull through...
I appreciate wad these guys do for me in school and stuff...
But when you live such a climatic life where its just so unexpecting, you need friends who will be there for you more than just in school...
Friends who will enjoy with you, sulk with you...
And im getting all this from my members than you guys...
Honestly guys, i find you guys reli boring...
Im reli sorry if im too direct...
But im too much of dick to care...
But after seeing wad Vijay updated on Facebook, my conscience came in...
My ego kicked it out...
So, im reli in a bad state right now...
I have been a huge ass all this while...
I don know wad i am becoming...
With all the girls i have been going around flirting with...
With all the cigarettes i have been smoking...
With all the parties i have been going to...
This wasnt who i am...
I damn well know wad is right or wrong...
But doing the wrong things is just fucking fun...
And i know it all just ends in disaster...
Lastly, to my dear Panda...
I don know wad the heck just happened...
It came to me that i just cant stick around anymore...
I have been an ass...
Lying, doing stuffs behind your back...
I know we are nothing...
And thats exactly wad i am sick off...
I promised myself many many months ago that i would never fall for anyone again...
Till you came along...
I wanted to honour my promise...
Hence, i hid it all from you...
Tonight, i was mean to you...
It was my ego talking...
But i feel so guilty and hurt...
I just feel like im not needed...
Okay fuck... Im starting to sound like a fucking chick!
Okay.. The asshole is back...
Tmr is cage time! And more partying!