Long post up ahead...
To begin... I have had it with social websties such as tagged or friendster or wadeva...
Haha... So, this 15 year old girl with an emo pic decided to try her luck and kenal kenal with me...
And i didn layan lah... I gave her one word replies through tagged...
Basically, i cant be bothered... So, she decided to leave me her number...
Thinking i would be kind enough to msg her...
And i didnt... Then she pm me again... Say please msg me...
Err... For wad??? Haha...
Another thing... There are so many wannabes...
Guys who look close to shit who wanna kenal kenal with girls...
Haha.. Standard lah... They wear shades and do up monkey hair...
Then they selfpic themselves trying weird step sachok faces...
Wadeva happened to smiles...
The worst part is that they actually took those pictures by themselves...
Wad losers... I mean... I saw this dude on someone's profile...
And i begin to wonder...
They use lines from a book which they pass around the whole singapore or wad??
Standard words...
Hello... Im bla bla bla, 15 this year... Do hit me back and do intro... tc... then they decorate it with brackets and Xs...
And everywhere you see, its always the same...
Some form or another...
And i don get why these girls even layan them...
The world is black lah...
And i noticed the huge amounts of girls be boys and boys be girls nowadays...
One sign in the quran that the world in ending is that guys look like girls...
Girls look like guys...
Aiyoyo...
And this is my life for the past 5 days...
Work starts at 3... Then is quite chill... Little work here...
Do prayers... Break fast at 7 where its busy for 30mins and lepak the rest till 10...
Then i usually reach home at 12 where i sahur and be online till 3 and then sleep till 1 where its another cycle again...
But i begin to find myseflf... Whenever im free, i perform prayers...
And i sit there able to find peace...
I think of everything... My life, my family, my friends, my future, HER...
For i know, i am here and not out there spoiling myself..
Basically, i enjoy my work...
So, Fyan, my work buddy wanted to give me this girl's number to kenal kenal with...
So i refused... I said no... I don do this kenal kenal thing...
Besides, my heart is still with HER...
People say i got to break out and explore...
I say for wad??
If love were to come, it has to be between two people who meet each other and have a moment where they appreaciate each other...
And at least know each other even exist lah...
I mean, you pick up this number of a total stranger...
Might as well use the phone book and just call someone right???
Then you kenal kenal her for a month and you get into relationship??
Thats pure shit...
Thats why i dont do numbers or kenal kenal or friendster or tagged for the purpose of meeting girls...
Thats crap... Well, i have seen many of this all around me...
But its my principle... My own way... Live with it...
So, i have been an empty container this while...
Or in other words, still crawling on my knees, waiting for HER to be ready and pick me back up onto my feet...
By the words of David Guetta...
All the things i've known right now...
If i only knew back then...
There's no getting over...
There's just no getting over you...
Wish i could spin my world into reverse...
Just to have you back again...
There's no getting over...
THERE'S JUST NO GETTING OVER YOU...
Yeah... Straight from the heart...
The first swee pic we ever had together...
Call me a loser for doing what i did and then holding on to the past...
Oh... Memories... Regrets... Chances??? We will see...
For all i know, i be waiting...