Woke up today feeling so empty... The msgs i received become lesser and lesser... Looked at my phone... Nothing... So, went to school trying to bring myself up... Forced smiles... Hui En's birthday lah... So, stepped into class and saw that HUGE minnie mouse balloon behind me... Hid Alvin Tin's phone in his own bag... Damn funny lah his reaction... His phone was "invisible"... Can feel vibration but cant see it... Anyway, borrowed Tessa's iphone to view blogs... Visited hers and realised wad had happened...
I read everything... Saw the various changes made to her blog... Realised how tremendous my actions was... Learnt today that bad intentions come with bad results... I made a big dumb mistake... All started yesterday... I bought a pack... (Bad intention) A very stupid thing to do... But i couldnt push myself into opening it... I couldnt do it... In the end, i didnt... Went home with regrets... I kept it... Could give my friends if they wanted it... Somehow, she got to know... And all collapsed on me... (Bad result) Now, i feel so shity... I explained myself... But to no reply...
Im reli sorry... Apparently, i am not just a dumbdumb at biology... But in making choices too... I realised wad means more... The person you love who cares for you... Who is willing to ask her science teacher for help to make you quit doing the bad habit... These things makes you even more special to me... And i disappointed you by my dumb actions... I know a simple sorry is never enough... I know wad i have to do... But if u can give me your trust one more time, that's a good start...
So, the day was reli dry... Missed her loads... If i could turn time, i would... But i know that looking into the past wont set things right... Wad i do now, changes the future... School was short... But seemed so long... Went off at 12.30pm... Couldn go to prayers cause of some survey thingy at 1.50pm... So, slacked outside school awhile... Opened the pack to give my friends... Realised wad an idiot i am... Went back to school for the short survey which only took 5mins.... Wtf... Went back home... The bus journey was different... My phone did not vibrate... Felt so empty...
Still waiting... Phone still not moving... Its just you i need... My mind is on you... Please???
So in school, my mind was focused on one thing... Setitng things straight... Saw a piece of paper and drew... Sorry bout the bad drawing and schoolboy handwriting...
